I haven’t written a post in a very, very, very long time.
However, there comes a time when all good things must end… well at least the
silence that is.
Lately, I have become more aware on how caught up (as a
society, family, and individual) in earthly things we have become- myself
included. How we are more worried in our day to day activities, from the
workloads at school/work, to what’s for dinner- leftovers of course, to what
didn’t get done that still needs to get done. Even through all these other “things”
that preoccupy our mind God is still with us, still by our side just waiting
for us to call on him. At the same time, we still put it upon ourselves that we
must solve all of these problems and the rest of the world’s problems on our
own accord- without any help. Yet, God sits, waiting, quietly and patiently for
us to leave these cares and worries behind and make the choice to call out to
Him and to include him in these daily activities while also setting time aside
for Him (maybe before these other occupations are all said and done). As a
mother, I put my children first 24/7. The children get fed, clothed, bathed,
and read a story too for bed, often before we can change clothes or grab a bite
to eat for ourselves. Our children’s needs are essential and our important, but
so are we, and while there may seem like a sense of guilt or fear that by
spending five minutes to change out of work clothes we are “neglecting” our
duties to our children, we still need to take the time for ourselves without
those thoughts our fears.
In life we all have choices- choices we make on our own and
choices that we are forced to make because of other circumstances around us.
Either way these choices impact us greatly- from who we are today and who we
will be. Almost two years ago I made the choice to let God write my love story.
To hand over the pen to Him and trust that in his timing and His way He would
help prepare me for the man He wanted me to meet- even if that day never came.
See before that date and time I also had to make several other choices which
included leaving an unhealthy marriage, starting life over again, and if I
wanted to “punish God” for Him putting me into those circumstances when I
thought my previous marriage was where I was supposed to be (a choice I had
also made three years prior to it ending). While “punishing God” was never the option
it was a thought that crossed my mind, but what purpose would it serve? Running
away from Him wouldn’t solve and erase the issues before me, nor would they
have presented the answers I was so desperately searching for.
There were many dark times in between the choice of leaving
my marriage and the choice of Handing the Pen over to God. I struggled for
years on even finding an equal balance and “justifying” my decisions. Some days
it seemed like God didn’t even care, that He wasn’t listening, and that I never
was going to find an end to the pain, heartbreak, and sadness I faced day in
and day out. While other days, it felt I was as close to Him as my children
sitting next to me while reading a bedtime story. And yet, just like the
choices we make God also made choices for Himself and for us. He choose to die
on the cross, to sacrifice His own life to save us from our sins…. Not His…
OURS! He choose the time and date He wanted to place us on this Earth so that
we would be worthy of fulfilling His plans in our lives:
“Before I formed you
in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart, I appointed you
as a prophet to the nations.” – Jeremiah 1:5.
No one said walking with Christ was going to be easy. He did
not deny the struggles, sufferings, and persecution we would face. Even today
in the 21st Century living a life in Christ’s eye is not easy. There
are so many distractions and misconceptions media interprets what “life should”
be today, and what “life should be” in God’s eyes. While there are many godly
men and women around us, living up to God’s Will is not just a Sunday thing,
but something that we must do every day of the week. Even when we are pressured
to accomplish the day-to-day activities around us, who will win out Society or
God? How we choose to live our life during those moments, how we reveal
ourselves to strangers, our friends, and our families are all choices we make.
So do you say you’ll live God’s way on Sunday and societies way Monday through
Saturday or do we always strive to make the choice to put God first… even if
that means going against society, our family, our friends???? Before you act, before you make that choice. Pray to God for guidance and clarity on if you're following His Will or your own will.
“When you compare what you have too what someone else has than you will
never, ever be happy! Be grateful for the blessings and gifts that come your
way and spread your happiness and joy to those around you. Just remember the
grass isn't always greener on the other side.”
-- Anonymous
