Even the things we love and desire the most, the relationships we long for... our not ours to control. I really feel like God uses moments like these to help remind us of who we really need to trust things over too. To hand over the pen of our wants, desires, riches, and needs back to Him. For who better to ultimately love us more than any person on Earth or material possessions we could own... than Christ himself.
When we begin a new relationship with a friend or significant other we get caught up in wanting to be thoughtful and attentive to their needs. We place our own needs aside naturally to listen to what they have to say and to communicate clearly. It all comes naturally. However, over time life catches up to us and we are quick to reign in our wants and desires. In addition we also begin to fall victim to thoughtlessness. Instead of thinking what we can do to better our relationships and to continue the open lines of communication we begin to all our selfishness to take place.
I am so guilty of this. As a woman I expect to have others, be able to read my mind, pick up on the clues, and know what precise thoughts are going through my brain at that very moment. These actions lure me into the silent enemy of thoughtlessness within my relationships. I have a strong desire to want to control everything and the exact moment things happen. No I don't want to be god... but I want to have the "Who, what's, where's, when's, and how's" all planned out- in every scenario, so that when it does happen I'll be ready. And yet, every now and then life throws us a curve ball. I don't know if it's God's decision or our decision to act on our free will... but sometimes things happen (by our own doing or others) that we can't control. Any in the process of trying to control what is falling down around us on all sides we lose sight of what ultimately matters. Handing it all over to God for his timing and His doing. After all who better to have things planned out for us than Him. Who better to be more thoughtful in meeting our own desires than our own loving God. But when we step up to the plate to take care of our own needs, God sometimes has to step back- while we sort it out. Thus in turn slowing down or halting His own thoughtful plans for us.
"Love requires thoughtfulness on both sides and teaches you to meet in the middle; together both parties need to respect and appreciate how each other uniquely thinks and feels".
-- Fireproof
Which is why it is in those moments of reckless driving we need to pull over and stop and meet Christ in the middle. We don't have to live life and make life's major plans and decisions all alone. Christ is there with us, by our side every step of the way. He loved us so much He died for us.
"God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
-- John 3:16 NIV
